And this feeling has been building for a long time.
I want to run, but the problem is: I don't.
I sit in my dorm room and I think about running.
I like the feeling of those Asics on my feet.
I sit in my dorm room and I think about the streets- where I would run, how I would run.
But the problem is: I don't.
I'm not even sure what's stopping me. Too many things I guess.
Apathy is one.. Inadequacy, two..
Not knowing if I even breathe right.
Fear of not achieving my personal goals.
It's raining.
I didn't drink enough water today.
I need to stretch.
My iPod earbuds always fall out of my ears.
I don't like being sweaty...
And so I sit.
But I see others running and I envy them (they're so motivated, they're so in shape).
Yet I revert back to apathy-one, inadequacy-two. And I do not run.
And I am not running.
And I look in the mirror- disgusted am I-
I see others running and I envy them.
fear-three, weather-four.
A vicious cycle of it over again.
And all I am lacking is the act itself.
Running.
Yet all it would take is just getting out there and doing it.
Yet all it would take is just getting out there and doing it.
Wanna go running sometime in long beach? :D
ReplyDeleteI'm often the same way...I have all this stuff planned out, but I never actually get around to doing it. Such an annoying feeling.
ReplyDeleteI've recently realized that, in some situations, I need to set a VERY lofty goal for myself. One I know I can't achieve at first, but maybe eventually I'll get there. If not, I know I'll at least get close and I'll improve a lot. And that insane challenge looming in front of me makes me want to get out there and start immediately.
It doesn't apply to every goal I have, but it's definitely worked sometimes in the past. And since we're alike on pretty much everything...I figured maybe it would help? :)